TING

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Today..particularly today..i feel so alone..the feeling starts, after i step in, to my house..It feels so different, be it the temperature, the feelings, the atmosphere. It was so unreal..Suddenly, i felt so stress up..i know is not because of the tests tomorrow..I really hope that it's because of tiredness, and nothing else. The days i had now, is so different from the days i had 12 years ago. I feel the love, the tender care of my loved ones. But it seem like i just woke up from a dream, and the nightmare became real, and charged towards me. I feel so alone.. The moment, where everyone smiled and joke, was past..the present, i felt horrid..so what about the future? My future? So what if my dream is waiting for me? Without support, i am still nothing. Dont feel sorry for me, dont even comment on this post. Dont tell me that you'll be the one supporting me, it's just a pile of lies, those beautiful, but hurtful white lies. Do white lies really helps? If it doesn't, then dont even bother to. Times are different..people are competitive..Even people around me. I feel so lost suddenly. Just few months ago, we're still so close, just because of a new challenge arise, people changes..Competitve, arrogant, etc. Maybe you dont know, but these things irritates, and it's a lot. People had their own character, but if your character, makes people feel uncomfortable, then change it. Maybe you could make more friends, and be more loveable. New year, new resolutions, new challenges, also new problems. Who knows what will happen tomorrow? I'm tired..i'll just leave everything as it is, and let it sort out itself, hopefully, knots would be untangled, and regain my smile. Please god, i'm begging you.

P.S. This post doesn't refer to any particular one. If you dont feel comfortable, do feel free to speak up.

Ting♥ @ 2/10/2010 07:59:00 PM