Thursday, August 26, 2010
Actually, i feel like leaving secondary school quick even though i know that i'll miss it. But it seem to be a torture for me. I felt as though i am not living for myself, but others. Maybe i'm right, and maybe i'm wrong. My mood seem random, and i think me myself seem weird. I can feel happy, but at the same time sad. I know i'm not good enough, but for some god knows why reason, i'm not doing anything about it still. I can make people laugh by crapping jokes around, but when i'm alone, i know i'm crying inside me. I feel so lost suddenly. I know i'm not myself these days. Maybe is the people around me, or maybe i am creating trouble for myself. Sometimes, i wished that i have someone by my side, guiding me though the darkest path of my life, sometimes i wished that i have someone there to listen to what i have to say, sometimes i wished that i have someone there, to wipe away my tears. But there seem no one there for me. I always told myself to never cry infront of others, cause i hate to look weak in other people's eye, but i always failed to hold back my tears. Anything could affect me, ANYTHING. Is just that whether i take that incident seriously, or i just close one eye. Sometimes not wanting to bother about the incident, but that incident came bothering me instead. I can't be trouble-free for some reason, and worst, it's my O'levels year. Is this some challenges that i have to handle? But this is far too much for me.. I am just a helpless little girl, with a pairs of hands and legs, and a brain like everyone did, but why i seem to be so different...Labels: Lost.. I'm truly lost.
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A simple girl with simple wish ♥
` Jing Ting
` Sweet 15
` Borned on 28 June 1994
` Naval Base Secondary School
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